Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I've ever faced
But I can't lose hope
And I can't lose faith
In my heart there's a space just for you that can't be replaced
So I won't lose hope
And I won't lose faith
I can't lose my Joy

Baby can you come over here please, take a look a look at this and see what you see?
She had a little lump poking under her shoulder?
I noticed before but it look like it's growing
So, We go to the doctor's office
Fingers crossed, it's probably nothin'
He lowered his voice slowly & told us
Cancer is the diagnosis
Whoa, hold up
Cancer?
In her prime?
At 29?
Wait a minute, that can't be right
We were instantly terrified
Her face turned white like a pantomime
I was momentarily paralyzed
Doctor said it like it wasn't nothing
But we hearin' this for the very first time
He goes OK people, 4 weeks 'til she goes for chemo
I held her close, I felt her feet go
Tears flowed, streaking down those cheekbones, she goes:
Baby what are we gonna do?
At this point we both crying
I said, I can tell you what ain't gonna happen
Ain't nobody dying
I told her, Babe you a soldier
We'll turn over every stone & boulder
But in my heart of hearts I'm fallin apart but I can't show her
'Cause if I seem defeated she'll feel weak and the beast will just keep feeding
God please, she can't leave me
This is me I'm pleading

Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I've ever faced
But I can't lose hope
And I can't lose faith
In my heart there's a space just for you that can't be replaced
So I won't lose hope
And I won't lose faith
I can't lose my Joy

2 more tumors formed
Under her jawbone
Another one in her abdomen
One the size of a golf ball
The other the size of a tangerine
But we blue collar artists
Gotta keep tourin' to pay the mortgage
Unfortunately Life don't give you intermission during performance
Every single night she singin' like her life depended on it
It was like her soul was screaming
Chasing that demon out of her body
Our songs hit #1
For 6 weeks at radio stations
But it's bittersweet 'cause the chemo failed
Next it's radiation
I'm coming all outta pocket
For the deposits & the deductibles
We runnin out of all options
I'm trying my hardest to keep her comfortable
I'm arguing with the doctors
In the parking lot of the hospital
'Cause we use alternative medicine
We have the right to anything possible,
Days away from treatment
We at stage 4, ain't no stage 5
Doctors are all speechless
With amazement in his face & eyes
He says I ain't never seen this with any other patient of mine
The cancer is disappearing...
It's fading...
Praise God

Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I've ever faced
But I can't lose hope
And I can't lose faith
In my heart there's a space just for you that can't be replaced
So I won't lose hope
And I won't lose faith
I can't lose my Joy

Miracles can happen if you have a spiritual passion
Plus support from people that love you & won't let you leave this planet
Baby, look at how much we've accomplished
And just look at how much we've grown
Doctor said we'd never have kids
Now our son is 8 yrs old
I know it's a been a minute since you let me write a song for you
It took a while to finish, to relive it was so hard for you
For all you've given me, I wrote the greatest of them all for you

Watching you suffer, is the hardest thing that I've ever faced
But I can't lose hope
And I can't lose faith
In my heart there's a space just for you that can't be replaced
So I won't lose hope
And I won't lose faith
I can't lose my Joy

Copyright: Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
Writer(s): Austin Toby Bohlman, Egbert Nathaniel Dawkins, Ian Richard Mcdonald, Kelly Finnigan, Maxwell Evan Ramey, Tom Shimura