This is kinda like a journal of my life

Hello, entering the mind of a fucked up kid
No luck, just skids and some obstacles
Take a look into my life, here's some binoculars
Pains ocular, growin' up lil kid living in an awful situation
Switching homes and I was runnin outta patience
Mom's home but she don't work no kinda day shift
She got a hussle she was moving round them weight-lifts
Penn station
Was a delicacy
Looking back I see we never lived frivolously
Loved menacingly
Yelling, cussing all night bout the drugs y'all abused
At the time dad always had an excuse
So mom just had to go lookin' for clues
One night, she was hurting and the world feel cruel
She was sittin in the bathroom
O.D.'in off of something wanna make herself pass soon
Too soon, for her, EMS
I'm blessed, they feelin like a savior
But it meant the men in suits gotta take us
Away, me and my brother with a new fam
First house, next house,
Living out a duffy I was thinking there was no outs
I was losing my identity, fighting just to stay in one house
Ah shit, now we movin again
Thank the lord to this day that we didn't get split
We found the home, it's the one
We would think it's the end
Untrue, our luck, we was just jumping back in
Went from broken home to broken home, it looks like a trend
One affair, didn't care
But some lies covered up the truth for a passing second
Feeling wrecked with no direction
Middle school came with lessons
But it only added to the wreckage
High school, short lil freshie with no friends
Well depends, who you ask at the time
Yeah my mind could abide, to the wrong kinda ride
Had a clique, they would hit and would lie
Even took the fucking blame for a crime, it's alright
Cuz I felt included
Mind was feeling clouded
Swear I had to rebound
But I sold like Ewing
Started smoking hoping i can get some inspiration
Eyes low, but I guess that's where the pain ends
No hope, barely made it through a day shift
That's alright, I got love it's a different kinda fragrance
JK, conflict cuz I got scared to commit
So when i got cold feet, they couldn't help but resent
Lord i gotta repent
For all the breakup texts that I willingly sent
Or all the innocent hearts that I drove by and hit
Hard to fix, yeah I gotta admit
Finding love, when you live through a heart with a dent
Push to start, ben 10, now I'm jumping back in

Uh, uh, uh yeah i'm jumping back in
Give y'all a little break, now let me jump back in

Bipolar plus an added secret temper
Mind clock, yeah it's switching to December
Feeling cold, I get the rock I won't deliver
Head spinning, where's the love I can't remember?
I'm doubting my way out of a hell of a life
I'm done with the fights
Why'd I say all this shit when I thought I had gave you one night
Get the fuck out of my house!

Copyright: O/B/O DistroKid
Writer(s): Brandon Lee